Oh hello, you’re
alive. Great welcome to the world, have a seat because you can’t walk yet. You’re
gonna spend the next few years in the psychedelic world of colors. That makes
no sense but it’s alright because you can pee yourself and somebody will
probably sort it for you but don’t get used to it, soon they’ll be expecting
you to use the toilet, so make the most of it, and not long after that you have
to go to a building where they’ll make you learn stuff and prove you know it
like times tables and the alphabet and whatnot.
Maybe you still think you are the center of the world and you can probably get away with that for a while. Some people do that their entire lives, but eventually you’re going to start pissing other kids off so you probably gonna have to learn some humility soon, got it? Good, all right. Then you’re gonna go to another building where the tests are a bit harder and the subjects are more intense.
They try to teach you stuff like trigonometry and iambic pentameter without ever actually explaining what you can use it for but don’t worry, just memorize it and spit it out and forget it the second you walk out of the exam hall. By now you’re probably getting weird urges to do stuff to your classmates that you never really wanted to do before and now you’re gonna have to play a game for the rest of your life where you really want this kind of closeness with people but sometimes not everybody feels mutually, so you’re going to have to hide it. Welcome to the world of dating and body language. Yeah, you’re gonna like the last one, it’s going to dictate your life and most of the films you watch and book you read for sometime to come whether you realize it or not.
Oh you’re finished spitting out all that rote memorization, well great, let’s go to university. You need to if you want to earn lots of money which is obviously very important because well, well it just is shut up!
Look, everyone’s happy when they’re rich pick a subject, not the humanities you idiot, something real like law or math. I didn’t spent 18 years raising F***ing psychology major. Oh you finished? Great, well it’s off to the companies for you then. Tell them you’re a people person and you have excellent organizational skill and you work well in a team.
your actual passions for landscape gardening or music, they don’t give a shit. Just
come off as generic as possible, stick it out for about 30 years, you’ll make
good money in time.
You thought getting people to take their clothes off is difficult, you try finding a partner to fall in love with and even then, what if they get bored or you get bored or they go off with the milkman or something, well sorry you’re just gonna have to risk it like everyone else. Like life, actually. Some people are dead by your age but you’re not. No, you’re still sad in a pit of your own mediocrity feeling dull and stepped on by life, standing on a rock that's spinning at 9,000 miles an hour around a gas giant in a infinite universe, a product of 13 billion years of cosmic evolution but no, no definitely you carry on being bored and feeling like crap, and now you feel worse because you know how great you should feel about everything, amazed and happy all the time and yet you still feel like shit. Well, that’s biology. Well maybe your friend’s getting rich or getting married or getting pregnant or something and you’re poor and single and maybe you don’t want kids.
It doesn’t matter what Carl Sargan says, you don’t feel any sense of wonder at all, you feel like shit, you don’t want eloquent prose about how beautiful the cosmos is you want money to live comfortably or you want to be in love and maybe you want children. Try books, there’s quite a few dead guys who are willing to claim they can explain what you’re doing here and how you can be happy but loads of them just contradict each other and to be honest it all comes down to you. You’re going to have to decide whether you believe in god or want to eat meat or support abortion or feel that life has intrinsic meaning and whatever you do people, will shit on your opinions and tell you you’re delusional.
Sorry, It’s a game with no winners and now you’re old and maybe you’ve got money and maybe you haven’t, same with a partner and child, and now you’re two steps from death and you spend a lot of time thinking about what you could have done and Jennifer smith in the fields behind your parent’s house when you were both 17 and how you should’ve said I love you and instead you said look I’m sorry I’m just not in the best place right now, come on it’s getting cold. Well, no use thinking about it now. Jennifer is probably old and doddery just like you are. Not much time left.
Well, I guess I’ll just do it all again differently the next time. Oh, there isn’t a next time? Oh that, that was it?
Shit, I’d wish I had known because if I’d known that this was the one chance I have to live as a talking monkey in space at the best point in history as the smartest species on the planet using magic on a daily basis like the internet and jet planes and smartphones with access to all human knowledge at my fingertips and the chance to talk about how cool being alive is I might have not worried so much about what other people thought and their shitty lives, and I might have just spent what little time there was making good art or doing good science or falling in love or just not being a dick.
Oh well, if only I’d known. Would I make my choices different? I wonder
Do you believe in the butterfly effect? I want to tell you about the universe. what it is how it came to be what it’s building blocks are, I want to tell you how the future creates past which then creates the future but first I want to tell you about crystals.
You might be surprised to know that a crystal isn’t an expensive piece of glass or a chandelier in some fancy dining room. The word crystal simply means a pattern that is periodic.
3d quasi crystal which they believe is the fundamental substructure of all reality this 3d quasicrystal has a fundamental building block a tetrahedron. Three dimensional equilateral triangle. The size of each edge on this shape is the smallest possible length that can exist. This is called the planck length.
It’s 10 to the 35 times smaller than a metre, so you know how your tv screen is broken down into building blocks called pixels. A pixel is the smallest possible indivisible unit of the 2d screen so think of reality as your tv screen but in 3d and think of the tetrahedron as a 3d pixel the smallest possible indivisible unit of reality
*enjoys not having to explain this shit*
Causality, cause and effect, what ever action you choose to do would have an effect and a cause of it and regardless of how insignificant you think something might be, it could be the root cause of something tragic as your existence, hahaha *cough*
So can me five minutes from now influence me ten minutes ago just as me ten minutes ago influences me as a baby, just as me as a baby influences me on my death bed. This is too weird to even grasp but everything we know says this is the way it is. Okay so if every moment is co-creating every other moment both forward and backward in time, then reality would be this massive neural network spanning space and time this type of network would have one even way stranger quality than everything we’ve talked about so far, the fact that all time exists all the time does not mean that future is written in stone and we are some kind of programmed animation or something that’s what they used to believe in the somewhat bummer idea of reality being a deterministic program playing itself out. So if reality is pure information if everything
So does free will exist?