25 years old, and already a successful model, actress, and now an author - it looks like everything is more than perfect for the London-born Cara Delevingne. But things are not always as they appear to be. In her latest cover story with The Edit, Cara has opened about one of the most common but stigmatized issues of this day and age: depression.
Cara Delevigne has bravely spoken up about battling with depression during her teenage years, and how it made her lose the will to live. She said that she struggled with self-hatred for feeling the way she did.
"I hated myself for being depressed, I hated feeling depressed, I hated feeling. I was very good at disassociating myself from emotion completely. And all the time I was second-guessing myself, saying something and then hating myself for saying it," Cara told The Edit. "I didn’t understand what was happening apart from the fact that I didn’t want to be alive anymore."
Over 350 million people in this world are going through some form of depression. Regardless of how someone may appear, how good they might look - it is impossible to know the exact struggles they are going through. The most common issue in this world, is still not being tackled in the right manner.
"I wish I could have given myself a hug. I wish I’d known that I was still in there somewhere, that I wasn’t my own worst enemy, that I wasn’t trapped. That if you can hold on for dear life — because being a teenager can feel like you’re on a rollercoaster to hell, that’s what it honestly felt like to me — you can get through it. Time moves on, feelings pass, it does get better." explained Cara.
She went on to say that her friends were not particularly understanding when she reached out for support, responding with "but you're so lucky." "I know I'm the luckiest girl in the world, I understand all of these things, and I wish I could appreciate it," she told The Edit. "There is just something dark within me I cannot seem to shake."
The model / actress is releasing a book called 'Mirror, Mirror', which focuses on four teenagers that does not quite fit in.
"I relied too much on love, too much on other people to make me happy, and I needed to learn to be happy by myself. So now I can be by myself, I can be happy. It took me a long time."
Cara said that she feels she has gotten through the darkest parts of depression.